Disappointed...

Today my girls had their 2 month check up and usually I'm really excited about check ups to see how well they have been growing and how big they are getting, but today's was not good. Fortunately they are healthy little girls, unfortunately it left me feeling like I've been failing them. Although they are healthy, they've lost almost a pound since last month and are now around their birth weight. I knew they were thinning out but they were also longer so I assumed they were stretching up not out. I feel so disappointed in myself. It's my job to make sure they have everything they need to grow properly and I have failed them, and to think I was excited that I'd been Breastfeeding them and things seemed to be going well. I'm so glad this was caught before it caused the more issues than being really thin, but wish it wasn't the case. I now have to alternate between formula and nursing for each feeding since they aren't getting enough "fatty milk" and I also have to contact a lactation specialist and work with her to make sure things get and stay on the right track. The goal is to get them off formula completely again but we have to assure they are getting enough calories from my milk to do that. I'm hoping and praying we can get back to only Breastfeeding and them having adequate nutrition. Here are a few pictures of my sweet little girls from our trip to the doctor.